Rantings of a broken heart
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Oh God give me strength. Take me far away...far away from this misery. From the scoldings, from the suffering. Im lost...taken away by bitterness...swept away by sorrows. But dear Lord, if it is thy will, show me a way, not just a sign. Give me peace, yet give me joy. For who has such power, such control over the human emotions but you? You who hardened pharaoh's heart, who gave Moses courage, who gave Solomon wisdom. There is no one else like you. Each time my heart sings with praise, let not the things of the world consume me, let me not fall prey to the bright lights and the sweet words of men. Anger rises in my chest, fiery and unrelentless, a itching sensation that never fails to go away and becomes increasingly *argh* as I fan it. What do I do? How do I quench it? Shout, scream, smack...that's called releasing stress but to what end? To what good? Am I not pure evil? Who then is pure good? No, what then is pure good? God is good. All the time. He is just, yet us so unworthy. But He is love. That's all we need. "For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:29-30 Cast your burdens on the cross. Where is God? Who is God? I cannot phanthom, but then again, He is everything. The Alpha and Omega. Author of our faith. I find new hope, new peace, new joy. How should I live? As a servant, but what kind? Willing and humble. To God be the glory?? Yes but how? To love, to see Him glorified, to be a willing servant of God. Love?? Oh the word...the meaning. The ultimate sacrifice was done in Love. The 2 most important commandmants demand Love. The relationship between a holy God and fallen man is Love.
But how to Love??Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits-”-
Psalm 103:1-2~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
