Give thanks
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Well I guess this would be the final of the final post before
IB exams (yeah I know I said that previously), but oh wells I am fickle like that
XD Haha but anyway this post concerns the recent common test. I know I've described it as terrible, disgusting and the thing that would totally wreck my life. But God is great and hooray, he brought me through it all painlessly. I mean there is nothing to be proud about my results, considering that I probably won't be able to go anywhere but army with such a crappy score (signing on after NS sounds like a really good idea now) but compared to what I was expecting, this was a MIRACLE! I guess two lessons came out of this
roller coaster journey of almost a week of worrying.
1. God listens to the faithful (so stop being whiny and full of self pity. Gosh even King Lear is more composed than you)
2. We all need friends to pray for us (and for us to pray for others as well =D)
A big thanks to the whole bunch of
hommies that prayed: J,J,S,C and R. Reminds me of a song that my mum used to listen to. It's called 'friends'.
The chorus is like this:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never'
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends
'Friends are Friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them' =D
Thanks yous Lord =D
~In the silence...I'm waiting to hear your voice~
A depressed soul, an open heart
Monday, July 19, 2010
I finally did it. I got someone to change my
FB account so that I never will enter it again till after
IB. It's depressing but other stuff are worse. Well I guess this would be the last time I pen down my thoughts till after exams too. Expecting terrible results. I have no idea how
i'll face up to my mum and myself after Wed. It's a terrible feeling. If they
deregister me, I am destroyed.
Funny how I shared about humility this morning at
FireAC. Meekness rather. Have I been too arrogant? Don't know, not proud definitely, I've got nothing to be proud off. Is bad results a way for God to humble me then?
Ahhh painful painful painful.
IOC seems so daunting, prelims seems so close, time seems so short, stuff to study is too much. I am heavy burdened, but so is everyone.
To find strength in God is an easy thing to say. To do so is harder. There is so much incoherent thought in my brain, it's frustrating. How can one say that failures are a good thing? Yes they make you work harder, to put in more effort but what is more effort? Is it writing more notes and looking at more essays? How does one improve? This is
pathetic. Studying is
pathetic. It all boils down to 30% understanding, 70% memorising. It's about going through the same thing over again till you get it right, and not only right but you can recite it with your brains closed. It is therefore saddening to know that this is knowledge, this is what we chase after and this is what we,
IB students who have spent so much time thinking, pondering and reasoning, come down to.
I don't know. To come before God with genuine humility means taking a severe beating first. One cannot be broken unless one is smashed. So smashed I will be come Wed, let faith, which they call ignorance, be tested. I will be prepared for the consequences but what then after that? How can I improve. God knows, yes he does.
For the Bible tells me so.
~In the silence...I'm waiting to hear your voice~
Madly in love
Friday, July 9, 2010
GGGGRRREEEEAAAATTTTT! One more paper of Math left and it’s killing me to get it done and over with. The probability of me screwing up this exam is probably 1. EPIC! Got some major explaining to do when the results come out, but until then…gotta work harder and smarter. Guess it’s good that there’s mid years cause I finally know what I don’t know. Haha dramatic irony. But it’s all for the better I guess.
NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG SKIN BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHICH ONE TO CHOOSE…
Reading History for the past few months has been the best thing in the world. 100 years of Chinese history is like torture and euphoria at the same time. After years of struggling to remember people’s Chinese names, I suddenly get a couple dozen thrown at me at one go. Hey not my fault I’m only three quarters Chinese right? Sigh. Haha but it’s the most enlightening subject cause it’s finally something tangible and not some fluffy econs theory or math formula. Not saying that econs and math can’t be applied in practical situations but it’s just very abstract, that’s all. But history has life and character to it. The subject demands that it be treated with objectivity and clarity of thought. Reasoning becomes so much more meaningful and satisfying when the motives of characters past become apparent and when events from different chapters engage in cause and effect, linking themselves in beautiful harmony. Woah so romantic XD Ok I’m IN LOVE…with history:)
Anyways, life has been a bundle of ups and downs recently. But I have to say the peaks and troughs have been much gentler than normal. Guess cause mum’s working and I’m home all alone. But the downside is getting distracted by life’s many temptations XD We’ll 4 months is all that’s left. It’s a scary thought but IB and school for that matter is really coming to an end :O Like 12 years in ACS is gonna come down to this next 4 months. How nostalgic. Haha I have this awesome plan for the next 4 months. Hope it works :)
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4544400&l=1f4ac83897&id=613183200~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
