Recruit Kwee Hock
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Army. 2 weeks before life becomes a slur of words that consist of no more than 4 letters.
BMT.
IPPT.
OCS. Any swear word in your vocab. On that last point, I've put it in my head to never swear. Never. It has become quite apparent that army is a place of well, temptation. Something that usually gets to me and becomes quite irritating but temptation is temptation is temptation. Call it self
psychoing, but the more one becomes aware of what he is getting himself into, the better he can prepare himself against it. So here is my stand. I WILL NOT SWEAR, DAM - I mean YEAH.
Time floats by and as the day of enlistment draws closer, I'm actually
getting quite excited :) It is
after all a new experience and a unique one of a kind experience. Not that I am
considering signing on, but come on, a whole bunch of guys sweating it out together with identical bald heads and black spectacles. What's not to like?
XDI guess I'll be missing the life of a civilian. Freedom has always been a valuable commodity. The ability to dictate your life, what you do each day, even deciding your own routine is pretty precious. Still, NS can be loosely called a right of passage. To not only learn, but practice, discipline, respect and independence. Stuff I might not actively pay attention to everyday but yet is important.
I'm really
grateful that there are friends/seniors who have offered to look out for me spiritually in NS. I guess that would be the biggest obstacle, towering over the physical and mental challenges. Thankfully, the biggest problem also has the biggest solution :) The smallest challenge, the physical aspect, can be tackled by the tangible act of training; the army has load of that. The next level of challenge, the mental aspect, may be intangible but it exists within the individual so it's a personal, 1v1 challenge. But the spiritual challenge is me against the forces of evil. It's almost like the devil is cheating.
Intangible, overwhelming and without a clear method for success (unlike physical training), I am really outnumbered and outgunned. It is therefore important that there are prayer warriors around me. More importantly, that I become a prayer warrior myself. If He is for me, who can be against me? :)
So there it is, my thoughts about entering NS. 2 more weeks. Spending all my free time now meeting friends and having nice dinners; both of which would soon become a rarity. Contrary to the previous post, I'm beginning to see that I should be grateful for the friends I have made. Though we may never see each other (often), but at least I know that I have been blessed with good friendships that has tided me through tough times in
IB. And vice
versa. Friendships are about caring for each other and as long as friends continue to do that, what is time spent apart?
Alright, Army here
cometh Rct Kwee Hock!
~In the silence...I'm waiting to hear your voice~
Argh
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Sitting in front of the computer has become an almost routine thing, scrolling through FB, watching Youtube, checking email. Seems normal enough until it sinks in that I'm living my life out on a computer screen.
It feels weird, almost depressing at not being able to hold that kind of long drawn out conversations with people, loosing the sense of belonging to anything in particular. It's like television programmes, one moment the show becomes so important and engaging but when it ends, it's forgotten, a meaningless part of your life. I wonder if school had been that kind of anchor my life depended on. The daily routine of saying good morning to people as I descend the steps to FireAC, the looking forward to recess and history classes and of course, the engaging conversations with friends.
Now that all that's gone, I feel almost awkward at meeting people, as if the meetings are only meant to fill the silent gaps that exist after IB ended. It's like catching up for catch up sake. Or at times to remind myself that I still belong to a community. I guess all this cynicism is a result of having known most of my friends for 6 years, some 12. Leaving the system suddenly becomes a shock that is hard to overcome. Worst still is knowing that some close relationships forged during the course of the past 2 years just seem to vanish the moment school ended. It just feels so...heartbreaking.
Anyway, I've rediscovered my love for books, one which I had 不知不觉的lost after entering IP in Sec 3. There simply wasn't enough time to read novels and such. Spending 3 hours 2 days ago at Jurong Library was like a detox session as I ploughed through the non fiction books. Thank God I took history cause now all those giganton history non fiction books become such interesting reads. I can't put them down! Spent last night reading a book called 'Secret wars of MI5 and MI6 (fyi they are the internal and external branches of the British national security agency respectively)' until 2am. Still haven't finished it but will try by tonight. Lying on my desk are Psychology demystified (something like the -for dummies series), Bummy Davis and Murder Inc. (an account of the Jewish mafia in America) and Start Where You Are (a book by the same guy who wrote The pursuit of Happyness).
Have grown a new found love for Switchfoot songs. Maybe cause the combination of meaningful lyrics and noisy rock music is such an irony. Trying to find their albums at Popular bookstores but they don't seem to carry them. Went into a Christian bookstore to ask if they did have their cds and was faced with a bewildered store owner. She asked me to repeat three times the name of the band and got me to spell it out! Haha ok I shouldn't have said they were a Christian band XD
Well, looking forward to the start of army. A new community to start in, with fresh friendships to be forged. Only this time, I hope they last a lifetime.
~In the silence...I'm waiting to hear your voice~
A song...about the best things in life
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
We will standSometimes it’s hard for me to understand
why we pull away from each other
so easilyeven though were all walkin’ the same road
Yet we build dividing walls between our
brothers and ourselves,
but I, I don’t care
What label you may wear, if you believe in Jesus
You belong with me, the bond we share
And all I care to see it will change the world forever
if you will join with me, join and sing, sing...
Chorus:
You’re my brother you’re my sister
so take me by the hand
Together we will work until He comes
There’s no foe that can defeat us
if we’re walkin’ side by side
As long as there is Love
We will stand
The day will come that we will be as on
eand with a mighty voice together
We will all proclaim that Jesus, Jesus is King
It will echo through the earth
it will shake the nations
And the world will see
And they will see
Chorus
Take me by the hand
Join with me
Join let us sing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HvttuqAaKNM~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
