The unromanticised Love
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Responsibility, the need to care, is a feeling hard to shake off. Especially when you've held that feeling for the past few years and have invested much time, effort and emotional energy to the attentiveness of the need of the other. Is this love? That one would feel
responsible for the physical and emotional well being of the other, the need to protect, preserve and further another person's happiness and share in her pain? Maybe this is but the evolution of man, the hard wiring in our systems to be
responsible for the people we care about. Or is it an indicator of something more, that for the few people that you genuinely feel responsible for, they are the ones who matter most to you, more than any material things in the world and that it is more than feelings, it is fate. I ponder over my relationships. Have I a soul to be responsible for and in turn have the other take responsibility of mine. If this is love, may I rejoice in the beauty of its human connection and run away from the trap of superficiality.
~In the silence...I'm waiting to hear your voice~
In His Time
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Aloha from Singapore...finally home after 3 weeks plus of jet setting adventures. Thailand, Philippines, Malaysia...it's been a blast! God has made everything beautiful in its time! It's finally 2014 though I don't feel like anything's changed. Just really overwhelmed by all the different experiences from meeting so many new people and experiencing different lifestyles. Gonna record a little about each location I've been to and a little reflection :)
Thailand:
Shoppers. Paradise. I have never bought so many things in my life. Everything from bags to clothes to slippers. All going at insanely low prices (by Singapore standards). Got a pair of alibaba pants just in time for the new semester...can't wait to put it on for project presentations! And 2 new bags and a million new clothes for school! What excess! Urgh felt a little sick with all the shopping and eating but oh well once in a lifetime experience. On a deeper level, it amazes me that 1) such a large number of people can spend a large part of their lives in a shop selling things on a daily basis 2) that therein lies little gems to be discovered in the sprawling maze of shops if one has the patience to explore. New wardrobe for the new school sem...yay!
Philippines:
Maganda Omaga. That's good morning or literally beautiful morning in tagalog. And yes mornings there are beautiful as our accomodation was set directly at the sea front. Going for my first ever mission trip, which happened to be a kids camp, was quite interesting as I struggled with communication, depleting energy levels and some expectation of peace and quietness. But still it was great to see God's work in the little children, for them to be so enthusiastic and loving to each other, especially as they cared for those younger than them. And the facilitators were only 13 to 14 yr olds! We probably underestimate children here in SG and spoil our kids unknowingly. They are capable of so much independence and even maturity if only you expect it from them! I did find it hard to completely feel an emotional attachment to trip. Their issues seemed so distant and far away and I felt like I did not make the most of understanding their plight or taking home a sense of Godly purpose. Has my heart grown cold till I scarcely feel with a Christian love or have I been too swept away by the demands of the here and now? My lack of emotions, burden or take away troubles me.
Malaysia:
SWAT camp 2013. 6 days of bible study. Woah intense. Had the song 'Do you want to build a snowman' stuck in my head so I sang it at every opportune moment, well the first line anyway XD Ecclesiastes. Phooo. So complicated, so many symbolisms, so much intensity. But hey, everything is meaningless right, until in light of God's purpose :) Recovering from the after effects of all that information now but oh well good time spent.
Happy remaining holidays!
~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
