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Saturday, April 16, 2011
So it is. OCS. Haha it's been a mix of emotions. Relief was certainly the first reaction. Not that I was relieved that I got into a much sought after posting but rather just relieved that I did not have to worry about where I was going anymore. That I could finally mentally prepare myself for the next phase of army life and not worry about how my IPPT was a hindrance to command school. I admit I was a little happy. I mean it is an achievement in it's own right. But yet that little amount of joy/pride kinda evaporated pretty quickly. Yeah I guess you could call me ungrateful but like a friend put on FB : 'OCS...A blessing or a curse?' haha what a double edge sword! But yet I'm remembered about the times I've prayed asking God to direct me through this BMT journey. Time and again he has shown his grace - in a little cloud, a heavy downpour, a overcomed test, a goodnight's rest, a breathtaking sky. I gave Him the decision to make over my future after BMT and this is where he has called me. After all he had surrounded me with so many Christian friends in BMT. To have a really meaningful sharing with bunk mates about God's miracles. To have time to do quiet time almost every morning, with a whole bunch of Christians! It's amazing how He is always looking out/after us. So really what do I have to worry? Haha ok I leave it at that :) Oh and note to self: Stop running insane distances just to try to even out your tan.
~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
Through Basics, We Excel
Saturday, April 9, 2011
2 months. It seems like 2 years. But then again, it could even be 2 weeks. BMT was fun, painful, frightening and exhilerating all at the same time. Sometimes, waiting around (ie. rush to wait, wait to rush) can be really draining. Other times, achieving something (like running 2.4k in 9.39 mins) can be the most awesome feeling on earth. But looking back, it truly is vanity of vanities. Haha ok not to be a party pooper here but really the experiences I've had in BMT remain memorable only in the near future or until I get to a new unit (ie next week). But still, thankfully, all is not lost. Spiritually I've learnt to rely on God more. Be it asking for clouds to cover the sun or help in overcoming a test, the hardships and discomfort I face in the army provides even more opportunities to grow in faith :) So now that I'm no longer a recruit, I guess life should get better. More freedom, less babying and more responsibilities perhaps? Looking forward to posting on Friday. To be honest, i'm a little disappointed with my IPPT pass and how I might not get into OCS because of that. I mean, being top 10 in my platoon to me is quite an achievement already and perhaps being an officer would be something I would feel at home doing. But then again, SCS is not such a bad option either. More personal freedom, booking out on Fridays, no 3 week confinement, closer relationships with the men I command. Perhaps the best is to be content and trust that God has put me wherever I am posted to for a reason. Block leave this week. Anyone wanna go out, drop me a msg!!! Missing u guys :) ~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
