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Saturday, April 16, 2011
So it is. OCS. Haha it's been a mix of emotions. Relief was certainly the first reaction. Not that I was relieved that I got into a much sought after posting but rather just relieved that I did not have to worry about where I was going anymore. That I could finally mentally prepare myself for the next phase of army life and not worry about how my IPPT was a hindrance to command school. I admit I was a little happy. I mean it is an achievement in it's own right. But yet that little amount of joy/pride kinda evaporated pretty quickly. Yeah I guess you could call me ungrateful but like a friend put on FB : 'OCS...A blessing or a curse?' haha what a double edge sword! But yet I'm remembered about the times I've prayed asking God to direct me through this BMT journey. Time and again he has shown his grace - in a little cloud, a heavy downpour, a overcomed test, a goodnight's rest, a breathtaking sky. I gave Him the decision to make over my future after BMT and this is where he has called me. After all he had surrounded me with so many Christian friends in BMT. To have a really meaningful sharing with bunk mates about God's miracles. To have time to do quiet time almost every morning, with a whole bunch of Christians! It's amazing how He is always looking out/after us. So really what do I have to worry? Haha ok I leave it at that :) Oh and note to self: Stop running insane distances just to try to even out your tan.
~In the silence...Im waiting to hear your voice~
